What Is Your "Drug"?

#FLOETRYFRIDAZE

PRESS PLAY!

Druggie or NAH?

You help me stay alive

While dimming my light at the same time 

Without you I would have to face it

Face my emptiness

Face my pain

Face my trauma of my darkest days ..and nights 

I never think twice

Impulsively my brain just knows I need you 

No matter how many times I’m freed from you 

I can’t help but ran back to you 

They call it relapse

But the laps I keep running in my mind without you... 

I rather keep running back to you 

I rather the temporary high and wear my tap shoes 

And listen to the taps over and over and over 

Until my ears get tired before my legs do 

Unfortunately this high is always music to my ears 

Until I start seeing the black bruise 

And it never heals 

But I think I’m healing myself

I think that the things that I think justify my needs 

I need this

My friends and family get mad at me 

They want me to deal with myself 

I don’t know no other way 

I don’t know how to befriend my pain

I see this 

But I still braid suppression, denial, and contradiction and make the most beautiful rope

This is just my way to cope 

I hang it and tie it in a noose 

And every time I take a hit 

I think the noose is loose

But it just keeps getting tighter 

Don’t judge me 

I’m enslaved 

My master promised me better days 

I don’t know how to stop this crave 

It drowns out the voices and makes me feel loved for a moment 

If I stop I’ll be reminded I’m not loved in this moment 

If I stop I’ll be reminded that I’m nothing in this moment

You make me something 

You make me not worry 

Hmmm..well

Until I’m looking for my next hit

I never thought I was so dependent 

I never thought I was so addicted

YO, am I an addict?

Are you so dependent on something that you truly wouldn't know who you are without it? I wrote this to make all of us aware, even myself, of our personal addictions. We trick ourselves into thinking we are so high and mighty. We fool ourselves into thinking we are so healthy. But are we truly? Are there any addictions that you might need to get a hold on before its too late? Suppression is my drug. What are yours my gullies? IF you are brave enough, gully enough, and vulnerable enough, share below in the comments. It might help someone feel less alone!

SIDENOTE : You ARE something, you are loved, you are in control, and you need NOTHING on this physical plane. Addiction is powerful, but it ain't got nothing on YOU and the power inside you!