ZOMBIE EMOTIONS.
STOP SUPPRESSING HOW YOU FEEL!
ONCE AGAIN...
START EXPRESSING YOUR EMOTIONS!
Okay now that I got that out, let’s talk a little about burying the things that hurt you the most. We were created to love so when we experience anything anti-love, our brains don’t really know how to process that. When something happens to you that is extremely hurtful, you either suppress it, release it, or wallow iin that pain. Guess which one is the healthy way to process? Exactly. Release it. I learned this the hard way because my “strength” in life was ignoring how I felt and just pushing through. Silly me. I thought that was the strong route. I thought crying was weak. I didn’t feel any healing from my tears, so I just stopped crying. Worst mistake of my life. The things I ignored kept getting stronger and stronger and I’m over here thinking I’m the strong one. When we can’t acknowledge how we feel, those feelings have to go somewhere. They don’t just float away into an abyss of ignored feelings. They get stored in our physical bodies. We experience sickness, disease, addictions and so on and so on. A healthy mind is a healthy body. You can work out, eat healthy and still suppress your emotions and be unhealthy. We should never let our emotions be in control, but we need to allow the emotions to flow freely and just say hi to them for once. Be aware of what is happening in your heart and then release it. But don’t drop it unless you’re done processing through it. Because it will remain stuck to your hands wherever you go.
Come walk with me through this picture real quick...
Picture you burying your younger self. You’re still alive, but you keep shoveling dirt until your younger self is fully covered. You do this because you don’t want to remember what that younger self went through. So why not act like it didn’t happen? Much easier right? That is what happens when you refuse to look at what you’ve been carrying around for so long and DEALING with it. I use that picture because trauma usually happens early in life and if suppressed, it shapes us and molds us into beings we were never called to be. Whatever happened to you, happened. Burying that memory will never kill it. Unfortunately that younger self is still alive under that dirt, suffering. Right now you might be experiencing severe pain but just unbury it. Just dig it up. Free it. Free yourself. Being strong is when you allow yourself to be vulnerable and honest. That is hard to do. It’s so difficult to face your demons and tell them get out of my way. Your demon could be fear of other’s view of you, your demon could be feeling worthless and purposeless, your demon could be rage at the people that hurt you, your demon could be feeling like you don’t want to be here anymore, whatever it is, you have to unbury it. See what caused you to pick up that shovel in the first place. Why did that event make you feel that way? And is that feeling about yourself the truth? Are you worthless? Are you ugly? Are you dirty? Are you a failure? Will you always be a failure? I think it’s our culture to not express how we feel. Society pushes us toward fake and we let it. We start to believe that if we fake happy, we are happy. If everybody sees me as doing okay, I’ll be okay. Yea no, not how the world works. Anything not genuine inside of us will seep out one way or another. Nothing can be excreted from you unless you push. It won’t just plop out. Push yourself to really see the younger you, the adolescent you, the adult you. Remember what you been through. Don’t let the past paint your canvas for you. Reconnect with who you really are, not what the outside voices claim you are. I only speak from experience when I say suppression can kill you if you let it. Don’t hold it all in and expect a fulfilling life. Write it out. Go to therapy. Go to someone you truly trust and just be raw and open. Do anything you think will help you let go of what’s been building up for a very long time. We are expressive people. So express. Not the fake expressions but the expressions from the soul. The true you. No more putting your feelings in a box and shipping it to someone else. Others are affected by your suppression. Your irritation, your moodiness, your anger, your jealousy, your insecurities all affect anyone around you. Kill two birds with one stone and just free yourself from the past and the emotions that come with it. Everybody benefits from that. But the most important part is you. You will feel lighter, freer and a lot happier when you can just let emotions come and go and not cage them away. I don’t know about you but I’m not trying to have my emotions come back to life and haunt me and chase me down. Unbury them, let them live and die a natural death.
It is time to heal now. It is time to just heal.