Vulnerability in the Mirror.
“You are not a pawn, you are royalty. Remind yourself daily.”
VULNERABILITY SERIES PT. 3
WHO ARE YOU?
“Tell me about yourself.”
Who else hates that question in an interview? How do you even answer that anyway? There are so many things about me that I am sure an interviewer does not want to know. Like, I am farter and burper…..I am gassy a lot. I blame it on the Crohn’s disease, do not judge me. Or maybe that I am millennial that does not really fit into this generation, well does not really fit in anywhere for that matter. Or maybe that I am a Finance major and love community service and blah blah blah. I can go on, but the point I am trying to make is that we can describe ourselves in different ways to others. How do we answer that question when we pose it to ourselves though?
The past two days I highlighted on speaking your truth, and truly showing the world the true you. But honestly, the only way to do that is to show yourself the true you first. Would you randomly grab someone off the street and try to introduce them to somebody else without knowing their name or anything about them? Nah! That doesn’t make sense. You can’t introduce a stranger to a stranger. So let’s get to know our identity behind just our name, occupation and hobbies. It is time for you to spend time with you. Yep, just you and you.
Let’s GO!
My therapist told me that I need to learn how to be best friends with myself. I laughed. Like...um okay doc? But she said “Quia, you do everything for your friends but what about you? Do you sit with yourself and ask yourself what’s wrong Quia, what can I do to help? How can I serve you today? What can we celebrate today? Is there anything I can pray for? “
I honestly never asked myself those questions until she said that.
I talk to myself all the time, but not like that.
Who does that?
Clearly, not me.
The more I’ve done that though, the more I am aware of things that I never was aware of before. So I am forever grateful for her and that conversation.
I can now discern the places that feed me, the people that drain me, and the things that hinder me.
I have a longgggg way to go…for sure, for sure. But that awareness has changed my life. I’m sure the people in my life can attest to that. I’m different. I’m not the same, because I stopped running from myself.
I admitted to myself I have issues.
But those issues do not validate who I am.
The crazy, broken parts of me are just things I can work through and grow from. But only if I want to. Only if I dig the weeds out and plant new shit after. So what did I plant? Aha. You guessed it. And if you didn’t, well……..too bad. Anyways, the answer is VULNERABILITY WITH MYSELF.
Will ya’ll plant with me?
Or leave me hanging?
It is your life at the end of the day.
I truly just want to encourage anyone reading this to ask yourself more questions and be honest with yourself about the answer.
Here’s a few to start....
What did I love about myself the most when I was a child? Did that part of myself get lost? If so, when did I start to lose sight of my true self? How can I get that part back?
What is something I did this week that I can celebrate?
Who is my biggest inspiration? Why do they inspire me? What can I do to follow in their footsteps? How can I put my own sauce on their way of doing things to make it my own success?
What am I struggling the most with in my life right now? What will help me with these struggles? Or better yet, who can I reach out to, to help me?
These are just examples I ask myself, but you can ask whatever you like. Spur up deep conversations with yourself. Be transparent with your own being. It’s hard to do this with our busy, busy lives. We don’t have time right? Welppp…you have time to scroll on social media, you have time to complain, you have time to poop, and you have time to take a shower. So just take out 10 minutes today, while you’re on the toilet, sitting on your throne and just reflect and be super vulnerable with yourself my queens and kings.
My favorite is in the shower. You can have the ugliest cries in there. Honestly, most of my emotional releases are in the shower. I have a hard time crying, so the water running down my face tricks my brain in some weird way. After I am done crying I just dance it out. Just don’t slip please.
On a serious note: Let’s befriend ourselves today gullies! SO again, 10 minutes of…
Silence.
Stillness.
Solitude.
Vulnerability.
The more you practice the easier it will be to bloom open to the world. We cannot stay flower buds forever. It is time for you to see the beauty you have hidden for way too long. Because it has always been there. OPEN UP ALREADY!